Interview

i had a great interview though it might not be promising for the summer it is for the winter break i have at school (which is 6 weeks). this interviewer was very nice and made me feel at ease. hopefully i will get something...i still have to go and get more applications because i still have time left to work (only two months) but i need the money for spending things at college.

i have to go mow the lawn, send a card, and clean maybe, and pick up my mom at the airport at 1135pm at night. bye.

Remembering Sept. 11th

My brother Justin and Matthew have written (in there blog) what they will forever remember of september 11th. this is what i will remember:

I was a junior in high school. i got there early and waited in a huge crowd before going to my locker. as we were all stuffed together a old friend of mine comes and says "someone hit the world trade center." i didn't know at the time what the world trade center looked like(even though i lived in the state of new york for nine years). so i went to class wondering what he meant. my math teacher mr.morgan said something about it but went on to do what he normally did which was teach us. the next period was spanish with mrs.vinyard. she explain what had happened though i don't remember it we listen to the radio about what was happening. Close to the end of that period the pricipal mr.nelson came over the intercom and said "no one is allowed off campus for lunch today. (then something something something)" as i walked to my next class it was close to 1130(central time). i walked into my speech class knowing what was happening but then seeing it on television over and over again. i was on the verge of tears. the pain in peoples faces running away in terror, the shock on all our faces and not believing this was happening. it looked like a movie but it replayed and that second plane turning directly into the building knowing that was its destination was a horror. the plane with so much force smashed through the other side of the building. the flames and smoke riseing forever. the next memory i have is the crashing of the buildings. man, that was hard to take in. the dust that lay for miles around, the smoke, people screaming, the massive pile of the building, firefighters raising that flag, picture of people that are lost that covers walls and walls. though i was in texas i felt the horror just like the rest of my classmates and even the world.

now i fear for a new friend of mine...harley(my best friend, kendra's husband)
after seeing the movie 'Fahrenheit 9/11' i see the horror he goes through as a solider. he now is a father of a 6 day old and he leaves again july 9 or so for another six months. the pictures of soliders dead on the ground, wounded, and burned and beaten. worries me that he won't come back after the six months. also president bush may continue to keep soliders in for 1 or 2 more. more people are dying for what cause, what is the reason we are over there for. if we are hated so much why do we put more men and women over there.

i am proud to be a texan. though i don't want bush back in the state nor do i want him to be the president. he has done some shady things, never answered the peoples questions, wanting to strict equal opportunities for gays...geezs...bush has got to go in november election, i will take anything other than bush. i rather take bugs bunny or porky pig for goodness sake. people need to vote and let their voices be heard loud and clear. sign-up now before it is to late. don't think you won't be heard because you are just one person it can make or break a election. VOTE at http://www.mtv.com/chooseorlose/pre_lection/

Jobs applied to...

1wendy's no interview
2charlotte Russe no interview
3godiva interview tomorrow
4limited too no interview
5rave girl no interview
6gadzoks no interview
7forever 21 no interview
8salvation army no interview
9el tias no interview
10cici's pizza turn in today
11daycare near hospital turn in today but other people have more experience
12walgreens(online)turn in today
13baby A's interviewed no experience declined
14taco bell no interview
15pizza hut turn in today
16discount cinema turn in today
17johnny carinos no interview
18thrift store near mom's work interviewed but never called
19subway(online) turn in today
20dillards(online) turn in today
21foleys(online) turn in today
22office depot(online) turn in today
23best buy(online) turn in today
24HEB(grocery store) turn in today

i have to turn in micheals, and beadz, walmart, jcpennys... and anymore i can pick up.

p.s. ok not 50 but it feels like fifty, i might get up there if no one will take a chance on me.

Summer Dream

I am stuck in the summer funk. I love school and the freedom i have their. i also talk to friends who hate their jobs. i say to them i wish i had a job. i have been doing application and writing my name and address about 50 times. if i don't know my name and address by now i must be slow. i have worked on finding a job and with my parents behind me telling me "go find a job." it is not needed because i know i need one or i will be in a bind when i get back to school. i am a hard worker and get things done, i don't give up, and push throw things when it is hard. all these employers say to me is "do you have experience?" i say "no, but ...(depending what it is i add something there)" they look like ohhh, she not going to work, "X" her off the list. then they say "well we hire people with more experience" i'm like "okay well i understand." i leave there disappionted in myself, that i didn't say that thing or this thing, and on the verge of tears. i am tired and how the BLANK (starts with "F")am i going to get a BLANKing job when NO ONE WILL GIVE ME A CHANCE. GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....beep, beep, beep. okay i am alright i just want someone to give me a job, anything. i have a interview tomorrow that hopefully i will do well on. i don't think i have been this depressed in years. i sit on the stairs, lay in bed, and don't move very often thinking about things. for example, not wanting to get up, not moving, leaving(somewhere not on the earth) but then i think about how much pain that would cause and how afraid i am of not waking up in the morning and making people scared so instead i just cry.

Congradulations to my best friend(she is a mommy now). i am the god-mother or Aunt katie. LilleeAnn Starr was born on June 24 at 10:17 by a c-section weighing in at 8lbs 2ounces. She is a beautiful, healthy, ten fingered, and ten toed baby.

well i have to go and do something.