Down 7...pounds that is.

Yep down from my previous weight. The scale keeps going down, even if it is a little bit it is something in my book. I have had trouble the last two weeks, nothing bad. I was struggling with myself. I thought about how unhappy I was when I weighed 190, so I lost weight. I was surprised how fast it came off and I kept it off. Now I am not happy at this weight so I am trying to loose more. I am afraid that if I lose this weight, how if I not happy again. I struggle with that fact. I asked myself is this going to make me happy right now? Yes. Is it going to make me happy in the end? I don't know. I worry sometimes about that.

Then the other week I was invited to my sister-in-law's sister kids birthday(what a tongue twister). My brother's wife sister's kids birthday. Okay I think it will always be a tongue twister. Anyways, my dad and I went, and we were happy to go. I had fun and enjoyed a break from normal life of the weekends, but I ate a lot. Afterwords when I was home I figure out all the points I had eaten, which got me down and depressed. The next day was Sunday and then Monday was the weigh-in. At that point I was 1.6 pounds away from reaching my 5% target(weight watchers sets up your 5% and 10% target, it keeps you on track and it focuses on the small goals to reach for not the end goal). So Sunday I was tough on myself, eating a lot of free or zero points to fill me up and trying not to eat much of points. I lost weight, but not a lot. Then on Monday after the weigh-in that night I ate over my points, which made me feel worse. I have tried hard this week to get back into the groove. I have worked hard to balance out my over eating on Monday, by being carefully Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. I give myself a hard time when I do something I don't like or when I disappoint myself and if I do that it is hard for me to get back on track sometimes. I know for right now I want and need this.

I have small goals for myself that I have set up to keep me on track and for me to be happy. I accomplished one small goal today. I fit in to my jeans. I will explain, with my problem with overeating and weight gain my jeans were tight on my calf's and thighs and I would have a muffin top(not attractive). Today I put on clean jeans that haven't been worn since they have been washed. They fit. I didn't have to stretch them out, I didn't have to tug them up, and I didn't have to suck in to button up my jeans.

Also, another goal I have which I did after my second weigh-in. When I went grocery shopping, I picked up 7 pounds of sugar(a 5 pounder and a 2 pounder). Even though in my head I go ehh, I've only lost 7 so far. When I picked up the 7 pounds I was surprised how heavy it is. I think when I get down in the dumps on how much I have lost I should go to the store and hold it in pounds of sugar to realize in physical form what that weight looks like and what it feels like.

187(first starting weight in 2007) - 156.2(last weeks weigh-in)= 30.8 pounds maybe I should hold all that weight sometime.

*crossing my fingers* to lose 1 pound this to reach 8 pounds and 5% goal :)

Weight Watchers

A year before I started March 16, 2006 in California

I was overweight for many years, though people saw me they never said 'Katie, you are overweight.' I don't think I would have listen and probably ate even more because of their comments on my weight. From the time I hit puberty I gained weight, the highest I ever was, was 197. I thought to myself and told my friend if I go over 200 pounds I am seriously going to kick my butt in shape. I never got there, but also never went below 190.

I did try a diet of just eating healthy stuff, but after awhile I'd stay the same weight at 185. I thought this is the lowest I am ever going to be. Finally in 2007, I realized I wasn't happy with my life, with myself, I couldn't sleep very well on my sides, and overall just fell like a big blob. I remember my dad going to Weight Watchers and losing his weight and keeping it off. As I started my earlier tries at weight lose or talking about trying to lose weight, I would tell my dad. He would say, Katie if you want to do weight watchers I will support you in doing that and help pay. I thought it is really expensive and I didn't wait to waste the money.

But in 2007, I needed a change in my life and in me. I found a Weight Watchers group that I could go to. I weighed in at 187 and eleven weeks later (I did the program for only eleven weeks, but you can do it longer) I weighed in at 168.4. I lost 18.6 pounds. I continued on my own and I got down to 162. Go me! As the months went by I kept the weight off.


A few days before I started march 20, 2007(I started march 28, 2007)


April 25, 2007 at the zoo

May 16, 2007-journalism school of Ohio University honoring my Grandmother


June 9th, 2007- visiting Niagara Falls and celebrating my Papa's 90th birthday

Until recently, a few months ago I went on vacation and let me tell you I had fun eating everyday and a lot of it. I got up to 170 and wasn't happy that I was gaining. So my dad started going to meetings for his own reason and I did it at home. I actually did it and got down to 149. yeah me. Then somehow it went all haywire and I kept gaining 2 pounds every week. My fear was not fitting into my bridesmaid outfit for my brother's wedding. Let's just say it was a tight squeeze, but not to bad when the wedding came around.

Anyways, this story has a point hopefully, I started weight watcher meeting last week. I have only done one week, but in that one week I lost 5 whole pounds. Go me! Also, when I weighed in last week I was 163.2, meaning I have gained what I lost in the second attempt, but I hadn't gained that much. I just can't believe the 5 pounds, I ate 3 pizza slices last night(the day before weigh-in) and I still lost 5 pounds. Crazy.

I don't mind telling anyone what my weight is, if it will help someone decide on their personal choices to weight loss or better living. Weight watchers has and still works for me. I don't think I will mention what my goal is, but I am heading in the right direction to it and will be healthy doing it.


Right before the wedding...getting nails done


After the wedding right before reception.


My mom and I, looking good and time to party.