hmmm

so friday...i had some fun...with the girls...playing twister while being intoxicated is quite amusing and challenging. it was a nice time to relax and have some fun because i was just stressed out and pushing myself way to hard the last four weeks and sometimes there is a need to let lose with the girls. anyways...i don't know if i will put pictures up because it is time consuming. i am trying to use a program called flickr but my internet goes down and back up and then back down within a short period of time. it also has a percentage that you are restricted to every month.

so saturday...i was jumpy and need to put the nervous energy somewhere so i decided to rearrange my room for two purposes: first is to change things up and clean up everything , second to have more room in my room for me to excercise and lay down and actually have people chill in my room. i will be sending a box home to my parents of stuff that is taking up room and things i don't use anymore. i might put pictures up of what my room looks like. who know's...

so today, sunday...i am going to head up to the library becasue i can't focus right now...i am also going to meet my TA for art history there so i can get help in the class...it will be my exercise today because i will have a 11.5 pound book plus more books in my backpack...hopefully i will survive :) (sorry memory came to my head...someone did a digtal thing with that song--"i will survive"....it makes me crack up everytime) ...anyways...i have to go do some stuff and then head up to get my studies done....bye

update on cold...so everything started in my chest and throat and now it has spread to my nose....i dislike being sick...well i am slowly getting through it but at least i am not as tired as before...thats it bye again

update on studies... so i meet my TA and it helped but i need to focus my energies to it. i have sat in the library for the last hmmm 2 hours looking at different things...i really need to talk to my professor now so i can get a better idea, which will be on tuesday. then i tried to go on to other stuff and got distracted....i think i am going to head back down to the apartment and read...unfortunately the library has filled up and i am one of those people who likes to people watch...hmmm comtemplation...well i am going to pack up and head home i think...well thats is about it

monday thur thursday

so i have been sick through these days but i am coming down from the hump. i bought a stability ball and resisance bands so i could workout at home when my life gets to crazy. nothing much has happened here but i will try to post a couple pictures using flickr but it might take me awhile...so check back in about a month. well doing some chores...bye

meshing excercise with school not so cool

i am trying to mesh lives together but i am slowly finding what will and will not work for me. well i need to go do homework...i have a big list for this weekend to do.

soreness stinks

well i guess i worked out yeserday becasue i found muscles that i haven't used recently. well this morning i was goign to get up and go excercise but i ave to o homework...unfortunately homework takes priority right now...well i have to go stretch and then do homework before my 12 oclock class.

change in me

So over break, I got an understanding of myself. The truth I really don't like myself, I am not obese but I am pudgy. I am the "fat friend" if you haven't heard that term it is when a boy what to go out with a girl but you have to be friends with the "fat friend" to even get close to the girl you want. Now you might think this is harsh to read but for me it is true in some aspects. Everyone I know has had a boyfriend but I haven't...and the cheesy line that comes after that is "the first boy you will meet you will marry, Katie" *roll of eyes* you didn't stay with the first guy you meet...anyways.

I wanted to make a change for me. I want to like myself and I want people to see me as I see myself. So recently I have change things in my life. I have tried to eat healthy and eat correct portions. I also am starting to exercise. I have a goal in mind in April time frame...to run/walk a half marathon. Now I have hear don't reach to high because you might get disappointed but the truth is I am disappoint in how people see me. I am the friend, sister, daughter you call on if you need to talk, go to movies, anything that is sit down and nothing adventure. The thing that hurts me the most was a thing during my winter break. My brother was trying to get into Austin but was having difficulties so he couldn't make it in until the next day (Christmas Eve). Which my dad and he planned to go run on a trail early that morning. So I thought I will be a nice daughter will wake my big butt up at 6am (which I originally was getting up at 10 or 11) to go with my dad so he didn't have to go alone. I wanted to surprise him but in the end got hurt. I think it stills hurts now but I wanted a change to be asked to go on a hike with or running with and not the couch potato I have been up to now. I want to make a change and so I am....last week on Tuesday I rollerbladed to Wal-Mart and back roughly four miles-ish (not able to measure). I have also tried taking the stairs more (5 flights of stairs). Today I did something out of the ordinary. It was sprinkling out and I couldn't concentrate on homework so I decided to go for a jog/walk. I didn't want to rollerblade because it was wet out and still raining. So I got on my gear(dance pant, shorts, thermal top, t-shirt, mp3 player, sneakers, and socks) and headed out. I ran/walked from my apartment to middle of Wal-Marts parking lot. I ran/jogged sections and walk most sections but I did it in 2 hours-ish. I felt like I did something good for myself. My goal is to run half or quarter of the way and walk the others sections, someday. What keeps me motivated is the saying "I don't want to be a couch potato anymore" I also am motivated by the show "the biggest loser." I love the theme song.

“I look into the window of my mind
The reflections of the fears I know I have left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can’t stop me now
And you can do the same, yeah
What have to do today to make you feel proud
It is never to late to try
What have to done today to make you feel proud, mmmmm
You could be so many people
If you make that grasp for freedom
What have to done today to make you feel proud

Music

Still so many answers I don’t know
(there are so many answers)
Realize that to question is how we grow
(to question is to grow)
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can’t stop me now
You can do the same, yeah
What have you done today to make you feel proud
It is never to late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud, mmmm
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud, yeah
We need a change, yeah
Do it today, yeah
I can feel my spirit rising
Change, yeah
We need a change, yeah
Do it today, yeah
Cause I can see your tempature rising
(What have you done today to make you feel proud)
To make you feel proud, let me hear ya, let me hear ya, let me hear ya
So what have you done today to make you feel proud, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because you can be so many people
If you make that break from freedom
what have you done today to make you feel proud
what have you done today to make you feel proud, yeah let my hear ya
what have you done today
what have you done today
what have you done today to make you feel proud, ooohh yeah
you could be so many people
just make that break for freedom
so what have you done today to make you feel proud”

nothing much to say

my life consist of:
writing
reading
drawing
and watching movies on weekends

that is about it...sigh...i am tired but i have to do 3 more things before i can relax and sleep...and it is only 545...well i am going to go do something...i can't really motivate myself today but i am getting things done slowly. bye yall

a poem i read in my junior comp. class(english)

i like this poem but might offend the parental units and i am sorry for that but it seemed to fit somewhat my situation.

"Daughter, study hard(for us your mom and dad),
so your future will be bright and easy."
What if i don't want to?
What if i can't?
Sometimes i feel my parents don't understand what
I'm going through.
To them, education is money.
And money is success.
They don't see beyond that.
Sometimes i want to fail my classes purposely to
See their reaction, but that is too cruel.
They have taught me to value education.
Education makes you a person, makes you somebody, they say.
I agree.
They are proud i am going to UCLA.
They brag to their friends, our vietnamese community, people
I don't even know.

They believe in me, but i doubt myself...


side note: i know i go to OU so insert that into it and that i am not vietnamese.

i think the last sentence hits really home to me.

well i just thought i would share a thing i read. ehhh, well off to do some hanging out(shopping for food and watching a movie) before homework starts tomorrow 9am.

classes stink

why is it sooo hard to find major?

i don't know but it is, for me anyway. i am not having a good day and it is only the first day of classes....grreeeeaaaaaaatttttttt. anyways i have to go do some more bull**** work to figure out how to get in to a certain major college in the university, figure out classes, find an advisor, see if i can be a an in-state student, see if i can get financial aid (grants and student loans), and see when i can take to pracis 1. i am tired, my schedule stinks, and life is just hard but i know it can be a lot harder then it is. well i have to eat lunch and go hunt down some people. see you later.


ohh and it you haven't guessed i am back in ohio.