My life right now has consisted of work. I am working on ceramics which has taken a lot of time and effort. Sometimes I don't even want to go into Seigfred (art building) because I have been there so much. I also have tried to kept up my reading in both Baroque/Rococo and Islamic Art history. I have quite a bit of reading to do most weeks. I have also tried to get prepared for the final papers/projects in these classes. In the Baroque/Rococo class we have to write a paper, so I have gone ahead and check out a few books and looked through them. In the Islamic class we have to interview two people from an Islamic culture. I interviewed two people already and I have to interview a third because the second one didn't help me out as much and I couldn't find art pieces or monuments on what his answers he provided me. The other class I am in is broomball which you all have seen the bruise on my right knee. So nothing much to say there.
In all of the regular school work, I have tried to search for a job. I am terrified of interviews even if they are fake ones. I think there are people who are bad test takers and there are people who are bad interviewers. I am a bad interviewer, I can't even think about an interview because I feel like I am going to have a heart attack, I get sweaty palms, I feel like I can't breathe, and I just want to run away. The problems I am facing right now in the impending career fair coming up on Feb. 5th. I seriously don't want to go/attend/talk to anyone. I am going to have to fake myself out, get through it, and then go home and weep like a baby or take a nap before my class at 3 that day. I just wish I could eliminate that fear and get through it smoothly. I just don't know.
no need to post comments if you don't want to...just trying to let out the fear by talking about it. I think I have to go out next weekend and talk with random people. Maybe that with help, but the difference is that I won't be seeing them ever again and it is in an informal setting rather than a professional one. hmmm, who knows.
p.s. I am also working on trying to take pictures and make an digital portfolio. If anyone has a suggestion to make it look good, or a program I could use, or make it go faster than it is....write me a comment.