not feeling it

some how the virus has spread...my brother justin started it, then my other brother matthew, then me and now my dad again. it is a way to communicate but it take so much time to put your thoughts down. i am not a blog-a-holic but my dad is, no offense. but i am sitting here trying to write a 3 page paper. instead of focusing i am stressed about a whole lot of things. here is my list:

housing for next year
money
major
classes
homework
excercising
being involved in school
and more but i can't remember....

i am just panicked all the time...it is like anixety and tighting in chest. it is a nervous energy. i am trying but just looking at my schedule this year because it scares me everytime i look at it. my parents say there is no reason to stress but i think i have been this way since early in high school except for my senior year when i just wanted to get out of school to go on to bigger and better things. i was reading my brothers blog and how he said that he wrote so much but nothing seem much to share. that is how i feel...i can't handle stress and missing home right now is not good. but i am trying. i also recognize things about me i don't like and i don't know how to change them. ohh well i have to go and do something but i dont know when i am going to write agian but just check back at the end of the month.